Intro

I've always been scared of losing the thoughts that run through my head. Once forgotten, there's no way of retrieving them. You can't restore from recycle bin or control-z to remember forgotten thoughts. Once they're gone, they're gone forever. As a result, I always tell someone what I think about. This way, my thoughts are documented into a certain part of my memory of conversations I've had (or, more conveniently, my Aim Logger). Then, these thoughts can be summoned to mind by a simple "Remember when you said..." or "Didn't you say...".

To put it simply, this causes me problems. I've found that often when sharing my treasured thoughts, people begin to shut their minds from what I'm saying, sort of like the "in one ear our the other" phenomenon that occurs the moment your mom starts criticizing you. People listen for the sake of listening, rather than caring about the content of my mini rants or speeches. What matters to me doesn't matter for them (most of them). I'm grateful for those that do understand and care. However, I'm always apprehensive about continually sending them my thoughts via email or AIM (Sad, I know. It's the result of lack of face-to-face time.).

I'm going to use this as a log of my thoughts, that I might someday share with someone. I guess if you're reading this, I'm sharing my thoughts with you.

Enjoy.